getting lost in my own mind

you smile, and i shudder
slowly melting away with every breath...
with every breath i take
i breathe you in,
your sin,
your scent, your touch,
your skin
which i might take, to borrow, or not
and i'm really not sure,
what i gave i forgot
and my heart is in knots
cause i know that i'll leave you
and my heart will be sore
cause i know i can't see you
and as much as i want you
to slip in my skin,
i know that i can't ever listen again,
and i know i'm much older, and colder, and sore
and heartbroken and boring and lively and more
than you ever will know
though it does go to show
we all will grow up, we all will grow old...
and we all must each go on our own separate ways
though i wish we could laugh, and i wish we could stay
not this same way forever,
but for longer each day
and it's crazy, you change me,
in every new way
but i'm heartbroken
on silence
that never was spoken
and on making decisions
that were usually broken
and i put much more soul
and heart into this
and all that you did
was give me a kiss
on the cheek, just last week,
we were happier then
and happiness measures the love that comes in
and love comes in stages,
salutes, stairs and hair pins
and i just hope that someday,
i can see you again.